I love this kid. He is literally my everything. My air, my heart, my life.. Everything. And I would do absolutely anything for him. If he needed a kidney, I would give him mine. If it came down to it, and he needed me to take a bullet for him, I would in a heartbeat, without a second thought. I love him and I just want to make him happy… But due to certain situations that have taken place, I fear that I’m losing him quickly.. And I’m scared. I love him so much that I’m falling apart. I get scared to leave the house because I’m afraid he’s going to talk to someone else….and start to llke them more than me. And one day, I’ll come home and he just won’t be there anymore because he’ll move on and forget about me. I’m not saying that I don’t trust him, or that I think he would ever try to hurt me intentionally… But it’s just always a fear in the back of my mind. I’ve been cheated on so many times that I lost count somewhere along the lines. And I just dont want it to happen again because he’s miserable or bored or whatever else causes someone to cheat and/or leave… I’m willing to do anything to make this better. To make this feeling go away. To trust him completely and love him like there’s no tomorrow.. But it’s hard. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like he doesn’t want to be here. And I feel like I’m about to face a life full of sadness and lonlieness.. Because I feel like one day he will just leave…. and I will never love anyone again. He is all I want forever and I just want these feelings to go away. I want to know that everything will be ok and we will always be together and be happy and that nothing will ever get in the way of him loving me back..