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I don’t understand why we keep coming down this road.. I’m heartbroken, but I love you. So very very much… :( I want to tell you how I feel and make you understand what you did wrong. I want to show you the pain inside my heart, but the only way I can do that is the tears that flow out of my eyes when I imagine the way things could be. Me without you bcuz you don’t like being told who you can and can’t be friends with.. you with your arms around one of them and me standing in the cold, with the pieces of my heart on the ground…alone and missing you… It’s not fair. Not fair that you could do this to me and not “understand what you did wrong”. I know you do. I know you know that this kills me.. and you keep doing it. I don’t want to tell you that if you keep doing it, then I’ll make you decide which side you want to be on.. Mine. Or theirs. But its getting to that point where I can’t break anymore. And you’ll have to decide…

Don’t tell me you’re sorry bcuz I know, I know you’re not. Don’t waste your breath on me… Give it away. There’s no way I’d ever forget you, but mark my words, I’ll never miss you

Sometimes I feel like I’m just not good enough for my boyfriend. I feel like I’m not pretty enough. Like my boobs aren’t big enough, my lips aren’t big enough, my butt isn’t big enough.. like my stomach isn’t flat enough. Like I’m too bitchy. I complain too much. I ask stupid questions or nag a lot. Sometimes I swear my love isn’t enough to keep his attention focused on me.. I just wish I could be better. That I could be prettier, and smarter.. so that way he would never get distracted by a 15 year old hoe that I pale in comparison to (looks wise). Now, I know if he were to read this he would tell me that I’m being stupid and I’m too negative. But its honestly how I feel. I want to change me to be perfect for him… But I don’t know where to start..:/